PSA's - Read, take what you will and leave the rest

Here are a few things I've learned recently. Please read, think about it, take what you can, use it and leave the rest.

1) Consul with people when they reach out to you. Seriously, you have no idea how much that person needs to know that you don't judge them. Knowing that people are there for you, wether you agree with their decisions is not the issue, it can make such a hard, gut-wrenching decision some what easier. Your lack of response makes that person think a million different things, yes, it really does.

2) Do not change who you are, your personality - NOTHING - about you to try and make the "in" people like you. Yes, I am almost 37 years old, but NOONE likes to be rejected, everyone likes to be liked. Hell we NEED to be liked, it's human nature, BUT if you change yourself, you will regret it knowing that they don't know the real you. And it is ok, more than ok, to not give a damn when they no longer talk to you. I used to smile, but not anymore, and that is absolutely beyond-a-shadow ok. I've even thought about unfriending some of them, but I'm not that ok with not giving a damn.....yet.....

3) The old saying, "Be kind for everyone is fighting some battle." is so so so true. I know in #2 I said it was ok to not give a damn, but it is not ok to be unkind. We are all unkind at some time and point, what I'm saying is be careful be more thoughtful even if you need to stop midstride and reformat.

4) Be more intentional with everything and everyone. Be more intentional in your relationships, give more hugs and luvs. Be more intentional with people, make and keep those plans with friends; QUIT saying you're going to call use that energy and time and just MAKE THE CALL. This last two weeks, I've stopped short when I tell my son "Oh I'll call so and so later and see if we can have a play date." I immediately stop, text or call, and set up something. I've stopped short when I find myself being bitchy, apologize and let go with what ever is causing me to be a bitch.

5) Sometimes what we think is supposed to be our path, well it just isn't. It's hard, my friends, tear your heart out, hurt more than you ever thought it would hard. For some there may be a different path that takes you to the same destination. For others, it might just be the end of the path, the end of a dream. In order for you to live and move forward, you have to accept that.

Please do not think I'm being condescending or better than though, I'm not. These are all things I've learned about myself during this time.

Much Luv
Michelle

Being Real

Did you see the ne name? Heart Made MESS? Yep cause to tell y'all the truth, most of the time I am a mess, wether its me or the house, I'm a mess. BBBUUUUTTTTT......

So this is Blogland and most of what you see is the "suped" up version. Am I guilty of this - ummm, PSA: bears shit in the woods in these parts. So that would be a yes

This blog is about to get REAL, R to the E to the A to the L type REAL. Down in those really 'yucky-don't-wanna-go-there' places and feelings. Yea. I know I don't wanna go either, but I also don't wanna portray that my life and home are perfect. They are far from it my friends.

But this particular post is about how it's ok to NOT be Supermom/wife/woman.

If I have learned one thing from our blurp with fostering is that it is ok to NOT be perfect and need help.

Yep, there I said it. I CAN'T do it all! Ok so not those words, but I have a real issue with asking for help or even taking the help that people freely offer. I don't know, I guess another issue I had/have.

Who knows? Who cares?

This past month I believe I've asked for more help than I have in all my years of being able to do things on my own. Wanna know what I learned? It's ok, it's freeing, it doesn't hurt and it makes those people offering happy.

I've had my folks come over and help me because I didn't know how to take care of two kids at once and use the bathroom (can anyone say overwhelmed?). I've declined and then reaccepted offers to take my cor to birthday parties (thank you Hannah) and reached out and asked for play dates at THEIR house (thank you Paula).

Before this I would have moved heaven and earth before asking for help. Why? I have no idea - I'm just a "pull yourself up by your boot straps and deal with it" gal.

No more. Nope. No way.

I WANT to be real - I WANT real interaction. I'm letting go my friends and it is so freeing.

Let go friends let go.

Much Luv,
Michelle

Grand Adventure #1 (or my first time not planning)

So if you read yesterday's post you will know that I'm tired of planning, tired of thinking for the next week, month, year or decade. So what's a girl or momma to do?

Allow the boy child to play tackle football. Yep, not worry about will it lead to an injury, will it mess up his body for the future, will he be able to finish in the heat. Yep, I did it and I waited till yesterday the start of football camp to sign him up.

A sweet friend from church sent me a text saying that she understood, supported, was proud and loved us and our decision. She also said to "just hold on for all the great adventures with Cor!!" and we are, we did and it was peaceful.

There is so much peace in just letting go.

My heart is healing.

Much Luv,
Michelle

P.S. Here are some pix since I was instructed to "not cheer me on at football camp, it's embarrassing!" So I did the next best thing, take a ton of pictures, ha!

 

 

 

 Yes my friends, We are starting to heal.

 

 

Where do I start?

Hello friends.

The title of the post says it all, Where do I start? It's been so long since I posted I can't remember what has gone on and what hasn't.

There has been so much going on that it's crazy and to be honest I just don't know if I want to rehash it or just move on.

We have decided to close our home to fostering for good.

We're all ok, even better than ok. We've had so much support and love while making this decision it has been a life saver.

I was told we can either or blossom where we are. We decided to blossom, even a cactus blooms in the dessert.

We were in the dessert and I feel like we are starting to live normally again. I'm so tired of living with one foot in the past and one foot in the future. I'm so busy PLANNING I have forgotten how to live.

I'm relearning friends, and that is a marvelous feeling. I am living for the here and now. Planning is out the window.

No I'm not freaking out or having a midlife crisis, but I want to be able to remember other things than planning for the future, the what ifs, the maybes. I want to remember my experiences and relationships.

I will plan for the big things, but I will not spend my entire life planning for the maybes or what ifs anymore. I'm dealing with facts and happenings from now on.

Thank you to all the sweet friends and family that have helped make our decision easier.

Much Luv,
Michelle

Pictures for Birthday post or {me not being tech savy}

Hey All!

Well I realized it has to be my computer and not blogger on uploading the pictures, because I can upload them from another computer. So Geek Squad might be seeing us shortly if Big Daddy can't figure it out.

So Grab your partner, doe see doe, here we go!!!!

FINALLY!! I bribed the man-child to get in the pix. I told him it's all his daddy wanted for Father's Day and his Birthday!

Beer and Shrimp Kisses - could life get any better? Nope!

Someone wasn't too thrilled we told them it was his birthday!

Me and my luv! I'm so lucky!!

His German Chocolate cake - I always make my boys their cakes. Big Daddy is very easy German Choco cake and he's good. Buckaroo well he's a bit more intense. I'll be posting details soon on his Operation Birthday 8.0 Nascar soon.

We gave him a goody bag, here's what I said - "Whoopers for his imagination, dots because he's the dot to our i , and wasabi almonds because he's that smoking hot!' plus those are his favorite snackies.

Buckaroo said "every man needs smell goods for his truck, cause we're country and we work in our trucks!" LOL so he added the smell good vent thingies.

 

Here's my thrifty Tuesday round up. The purses feel softer and softer the more I use them!

Here is the plaque - I luv the verse, i have a james avery ring that has this exact verse written in Hebrew symbols.

Buckaroo was 'neerviis' about Summer MDO starting so I made him a love note (he calls them that). He said it made him feel so much better. He stopped right before we got to where all the kids were and said "Momma, give me a good kiss."

 

 

And here's just a little something something because....well I just can't get enough of these two and the love they have for one another!

 

 

LUVS!!

Michelle

 

 

Thrifty Tuesday and a Happy Happy Happy Birthday!

Hey Guys,

Just a quick note for a Thrifty Tuesday recap this week from Goodwill. I found two sweet, buttery, soft leather purses. A beautiful double heart sculpture with Song of Solomon verse on it. I wasn't too happy with the price of the purses but they so soft and buttery feeling. The silver one is a Nine West and was $9, so as compared to retail it's a great price but for me I think it was high. The green one is a no name (at least what I could see) and was $7. The shadow box with the hearts was only $2, so I think it totally balanced out, lol!

Tuesday was Bid Daddy's 46th Birthday! I'm so lucky to have him, I always say he luvs me at my best, and loves me even more when I'm at my worst! He's a great man, friend, husband, father and just all around great guy! We went to eat at one of our favorite seafood places, a local place named Sharky's. We had the extended family, and everyone had a really great time! we actually got the oldest in a pix (we bribed him, we told him it's all his daddy wanted for Father's day and his birthday)!

He got a goody bag of treats from us. Whoppers because of his imagination, dots because he's the dot to our i , wasabi smokehouse almonds because he's that smoking hot! Buckaroo got him so smell good stuff for his truck, cause all 'men need stuff to make their trucks smell better.'

Buckeroo started his Summer MDO summer 'camp' program yesterday, he was 'neervis' so I tried to cheer him up with a special made card. It worked, before we got to his room he stopped and said, "Momma give me a kiss on the top of my head." Yes, my friends, that is my heart in a puddle in the middle of the floor.

I was hoping to up load some pix but blogger has been having a fit and shutting down every time I try to upload a pix. I have them on my facebook and instagram though. Is anyone else having an issue uploading pix? I've tried resaving them, tried different ones, tried uploading from another site, nothing! Hope it fixes itself soon!!

Much Luvs!
Michelle 

This Is Me May 2013 or "My Time"

Hey all!

Amy over at While Wearing Heels hosted May's This Is Me Linky Party, the optional theme was "Me Time." Well y'all know me and thrifting so....any idea of what I do for my Me Time?

I know I know I'm a tough cookie to crack, but it was thirting, lol! I used to go all the time but I've been making my self go only once or twice a week. We have a Goodwill and a sprinkling of other stores right around work, and I normally use it as a break.

I normally hit the furniture area then books. I LOVE to purchase books at thrift stores. They are usually 10% of their normal retail price and most are in excellent to good shape. So here is one snippet of a Thrifty Thursday for ya.

I have a thing for Russian nesting dolls, this one was a family. It went Daddy, Mommy, child, dog and cat. I normally don't get that many books but someone must have cleaned out their child's books because this was probably 5% that was there! The soup bowls are fabulous, they are opaque-whitish inside with a peachy iridescent outside. No chips, no wear no nothing and four to boot!

Thanks for stopping stoping by!
 
Michelle