February This Is Me {or me learning to be more comfortable in my own skin}

This is February's post for This Is Me by Amy over at While Wearing Heels. I originally did not want to join this challenge. As I told Amy I have baggage about my outward looks, some serious baggage. Ouch....I hate saying that because I think at first read it makes me sound vain, extremely vain, and if there is one thing that I'm not it's vain. As a person that has been heavy their entire life minus 1.5 yrs (after gastric bypass surgery) one gets really used to hearing the ugly, angry and hurtful remarks. I also think that when you get to the point of being used to hearing things, you start to believe them or at least it becomes rote. I know that my self worth as nothing, absolutely NOTHING to do with my outside, and I try so hard to teach my child that, but you know Monkey See, Monkey Do? Yea, OUCH..... again. So I decided that this would be the perfect challenge for me to embrace to get comfortable with myself and the Monkey See, Monkey Do won't be an ouchie. I NEVER want my child to ever feel that they have baggage about how they look and in turn how they feel about themselves.

So here we go: