i *AM* strong

So yesterday I wrote that the main silver lining I learned through our whole experience was that

 

i *AM* strong

 

 

 

I learned I am stronger than my fears.

 

I had so many fears placed in front of me and not only did I over come them I rocked them to next Sunday!

 

I drove the scary medical center and interchanges BY MYSELF (Amy can you believe it?!), which I get hives just riding usually.

 

I took care of a medically fragile child, I used to be 'that mom' the doctor's office talks about.

 

I realized that I can make the hardest decision of my life, and still be OK (this was an us decision but you get what I mean).

 

I let go of dreams that I'd had since I was a little girl, and reshaped them and realized I will survive.

 

I realized that it's ok if my child doesn't like me, I'm his parent first. I worried so much that his disappoint and dislike of me was going to scar him. I realized and embraced the fact that his dislike for me will be momentary, but his lesson learned will be a lifetime.

 

I found out the old saying 'what doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger' is 100% true and accurate. One day the sun will have little peaks of rays coming through your haze and you will feel the fog lifting. At that very moment you will realize that saying is true.

 

I let go and let God, this doesn't seem like much but for a type A personality that plans EVERY LITTLE THING DOWN TO A T it's huge, like H-U-G-E huge.

 

I hope the one thing you take away from this post, is that you are so so so so much stronger than you realize and give yourself credit for. Tap into that now, know it and embrace it. For me, this strongness that I know I am capable of IS my new way of life.

 

Much luv,

Michelle